Daily Insanity, December 2, 2022

Brother’s phone keeps ringing with robo calls … when he answers no one is there and no one leaves a message … he believes it is a Mystery Girl, or The Mafia, seeing if he is home … he claims they are wasting all his time …

He exclaimed “The mystery girl wasted my whole morning!” He will answer and start talking to no one … no one answers his talking into the phone, but he just knows it is this girl, so he will carry on a one way conversation with her …
 
He is ‘pursuing his acting career’ … but he is concerned about how is going to tolerate all the name calling but then he realized, since he can their read lips on the screen, that all the actors are always taking shit about each other, trying to one up each other, so that is normal, he says “I know that business …”

Robin Roberts of Good Morning America was calling him names through the TV … he read her lips … she was saying ‘whoever stays home is a piece of shit’ (When he hears the voices calling him names, or talking shit to him, these are his own thoughts about himself, that he, in his mind, transforms into a fantasy manifestation through other people …)

Another one of his proclamations … “I’d like to become a doctor so I can strap these doctors down and inject them with their own fucking medicine, all the stuff they inject me with …”

He has had a lot of bad experiences in hospitals with take downs where they inject him with an antipsychotic to bring him down from an elevated manic episode of anger … he has been hurt before in these take downs … so they bring back PTSD for him … once, in an Arizona hospital, he was taken down on 100 degree concrete and received 3^rd degree burns to his arm … he has a very LARGE, nasty scar to prove it … I can imagine him screaming that his arm is burning and them ignoring him and injecting him with the juice to bring him down from his mania … it still makes me cry …

He is a big guy and can be intimidating, especially when he is manic and angry … but he would not hurt a fly, literally … it is not in his nature … I have never seen him hurt anyone, ever … when he threatens to hurt these doctors in this way, he is just trying to express, in words, how angry he is by not being able to control his environment when he is psychotically manic and how others react in a negative manner towards him when he is like that … he thinks he is ‘normal’ when he is like that … and the ironic part, is that it IS normal for him … hard to argue with that … he just cannot operate successfully in society in such a manner …

Just reporting more of the insanity at this point … not much to say about it at this time …