Millennial Starbucks Bitch

I wanted coffee before my meeting … it is around the corner from my home and on the way to the meeting, so I put in a mobile order for pick up, in plenty of time for it to be ready by the time I got there.

 

Pulling into the parking lot, I could see there was already a huge line at the drive through … I always walk in to get my mobile order, it is quicker …

 

The Starbucks was packed on this busy Saturday morning … I went up to the barista pick up window, but they were so busy, they did not even acknowledge me … I waited patiently for them to ask me, “are you here for a mobile order?” like they always do …

 

I waited about 3-4 minutes when a young woman walked up boldly, right to the window … I mentioned to her I had been there waiting and they still did not ask me about my order yet … the barista approached her first and asked who the order was for … she did not defer to me, as the first person waiting in line, she was about to tell her name, when I jumped in and said my name … the barista looked annoyed at me … hmmmm … the young lady pointed to me and repeated my name first and then her name … the barista grabbed her drink first but we both had multiple items in our order, as we both had ordered breakfast as well …

 

I looked directly at her, as if to ask her why she was so rude to cut in line … she made the excuse that she was parked “really crazy” and wanted to get back out to her car … I Iet her off the hook and commented that it sure was busy this morning … she politely agreed … I didn’t need a confrontation, only to establish respect in the situation …

 

The Barista gave me the rest of my order before hers and I left telling her to” have a great day” as I said in my head “you stupid little bitch” …

 

I walked out the parking lot to see where the crazy parking job had taken place … I could not see a car parked sideways or in the handicap spot or double parked, etc … As I got into my car, I saw her get into her Mercedes SUV that was parked a little crooked in between the lines of one parking spot …

 

Many reading this may think … take the high road … let her go first … You may ask “what’s the big deal?!” … it’s not about being first, or being right, or even the principal of the matter. Well at least not the USUAL principal of the matter … that’s not the point … The principal point of THIS matter was about taking care of me. Being present for me and not being taken advantage of… being seen, being heard, not being ignored or disrespected …

 

I stood up for ME … I was present for ME … I did not abandon ME in the moment …

 

Growing up, I was not heard … in fact, I feel very few people actually hear me now … I can talk until I am blue in the face, and it does not mean people will hear me, understand, care, sympathize, empathize or whatever … I feel I need to repeat myself about 3-4 times when I speak because people do not seem to hear me … It is not about me … it is about them being distracted, not caring, being busy, being self-occupied, being, again, whatever… but the little girl in me longs for someone to hear me …

 

I hear me … Big ME hears little me’s cry for attention, and I am standing up for her in the moment …

This Millennial bitch KNEW I was before her and didn’t care, she was thinking more about herself than anyone else … SO, Big ME stepped in and announced “YOU DON’T GET TO IGNORE ME, or me, TODAY” … She may not be used to people calling her out on her aggressive, self-absorbed, behavior … the point is not even about her … again, it is about ME taking of me …

 

I was nice about it, but assertive … not the bitch that I can sometimes be … that’s part of the victory … doing it differently … with a different attitude than I would normally have … well except for calling her a bitch in my head … I am still working on that part … HA! I didn’t say I was perfect … just happy with myself for sticking up for myself, with a good outward attitude … I’ll work on blessing her inside too … that is the advanced class for sure!

 

I feel good for taking care of myself and I do not even have to have a resentment over it. There are times in the past I would have nursed that resentment for a long time … not this time … I did what I did, I felt good and could move on … I feel good about taking care of myself … very few other people are looking out for me … so, I heard me, and I acted accordingly … Good for ME!

 

I do not have to worry about what others may think or say about how I handled the situation, because I feel good about how I handled the situation … I feel good about me … that’s half the battle in this life … feeling good about yourself …

 

My Sponsor says “I am enough regardless of praise or criticism” … I can be my biggest critic … so this is a pretty big deal for me … a win for me in the battle of life … It’s a small win but I’ll take it as they all add up to self-esteem which I have searched for desperately my whole life … that is finally happening for me from little acts of self-love like this story … thank you Jesus …

 

Whether the little line jumper will learn her lesson is up to her … I am learning mine … grateful for it too!

 

Thanks for listening for a minute …

 

Take Care & God Bless!